haaha like remembering things! im not allowed to remember anything?! >:O jkjk (: idk i was just remembering how good last yr us and stuff cuz we had rotc together but now its all different since we dont have any classes together which is mot likely imposible anyway =l unless ur taking spanish 2 o____o
haha no spanish...french 2 is a bitch...i knoew what you mean last year was great we don't see each other much any more =[..
listen, dont feel bad for what you did on friday. i deserved it. i wasnt being myself and i never let anyone try to tell me what decisions to make and what i should do in my life. and it was kind of hard to face it but yu were right. and i thank you believe it or not, cuz u made me realize how stupid and immature my actions and intentions were.
well wen i went home, and i finally got to caulin, he told me his laptop was getting taken away and he wouldnt be able to talk to me for like 5 months or more, and he told me that we should just end it, and it made me go even more emo than i already was, and he hung up. that was at 10:55pm yesterday. i was crying before that for god noes what. and i cried till 1:12am. then blake called me and cheered me up, and cody was high as usual. still tho, u was crushed. and i cried in my sleep, and wen i woke up. till....the unbelievable happened...
10:00am, caulin logs on and tells me, that his mom didnt kick him out, and he gets to keep everything. so i was relieved. yet i still cried, but it was for tears of happyness. and i remembered what u sed, and i actually smiled.....
cuz even tho u sed u were made at alofa, everything u sed was direct and i couldnt take it at first cuz like i sed, i wouldnt let anyone or anything tell me what to do, so...
its MY turn to apologize.
for making u feel like shit, and for not saying much in the fone call u made. i didnt noe what to say and i didnt noe how i could actually say my apology.
so i say it nao. since u dont hav a myspace or facebook or friendster or aim or msn or yahoo. which is all the stuff i use. anyway. its a gud thing i got this, and u got me to join. which im happy about, becuz i can relate to u...lol
so im sorry, for everything, and i hope that monday wont b awkward.
and dude, i got my hair cut and now its fucking short.and my mom made me get light ass highlights, so now my hair is like fucking blonde.
well, u will see it, wen i upload the picture on myspace, or wen u come early and u see me on monday, at 5 -_- last wk of school tho. so b happy :)
any, i love you, [no fkin homo], and ya. im sorry
cya
haah i can't wait to see your do new hair, omg i'm going to laugh i hope you realize this. i'm getting my hair done later, and i swear if it turns out bad AGAIN im going to beat ass. -_-.
i'm sorry you had to go through that whole thing with caulin, but i'm glad you got to keep him in the end. I don't know if i ever told you about sean and kelsey...about two years ago? i was babysitting with my best friend kelsey, and i came clean about liking him. a lot. and i told him too. that night in my house on my computer he asked her out and without even asking if i would be okay with it, she said yes. i woke up a few hours later and she told me. i cried for two hours strait i wa losing it. that's the first time i ever cut. no i'm hoked and everytime i try to stop something happens and i do it again. i was afraid that was going to happen to you too. remember in the begining of the year where i barely showed emotion? well that's something that you helped me out of and i didn't want to see you go to where i had been, cause it sucks ass, and most of the time there is no changing it. if you went into that ?!@# i don't know if i could get you out of it and thats what mainly made me feel like shit.
btw i lost mi fone, so dont try and contact me through it, i probably wont be picking up
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