Dear, Daddy



I try, oh too hard to forget you

To forget the many nights you slipped into bed with me

The many nights you woke me

The many nights you whispered in my ears "I love you, that´s why I do this"

The many nights mom would wake and find you gone

The many nights I cried because all I can think is why mom would let you do this to me?

The nights, I liked it

The nights I wanted you near

The cold nights you weren´t there

The nights I heard you with mom instead of with me

The mornings I would wake with the scent of you on me

The nights I would say under my breath "I hate you."

The nights that I would have to dodge in my closet to escape you

That´s why I´m happy that they found you

I´m happy that you can no longer tell me such sweet words

That no longer can you crawl in my bed

But I´d like you to know that, I still fear the night I hear "I love you, that´s why I do this"



Without love; your forgotten son