i havent realy messed with my manga much so nothing new out of that. you rember when i told you about carrie acting (nicer) well if i didnt tell you a big disagreement started that seems like it happened a long time ago when carrie left and i thoaght she was gone for good im pretty sure you rember me telling you about that and well after that big event i had to go to counciling for stupid resons and i guessed she wanted to remain nice until dad cooled off about the previous event and apparently i was freakin right i cant belive i even thoaght for a moment hoping maybe things would change i cant belive i thoaght that for a second...i will never put my hopes in her again..dont know why i even did i guess it was how long she remained nice which was about 2 months. and byan is a fucking bastered!!! i dont even want to concider him a father anymore yet i still end up calling him dad..why you ask? because today carrie was worring about going to her family tomarrow morning and dad going with her. but she asked if he was still going to take me to the basketball game on wensday and he ended up saying ooohhhh.....and looked disappointed like he wasnt going to take me to the game and he alredy did that but thinking about doing it a second time just proves just how much he rely cares about me. and carrie has alredy yelled at me 3 times todday and those three times was when bryan wasnt looking she's such a bitch! she even got pissed off at me on CHRISTMAS DAY!!! just for not noticing and not thanking for the suprise gift i didnt notice that morning. and she acted like every word that came out of my mouth was a dirty lie and said to me stop giving her faces at first i was thinking she ment i was giving a stupid expression. then she tells me stop giving me that sad and sorry look. like it was fake. and even now she acts like im saying nothing but lies. she hit me with a spoon today and threw a rag at me not to mention the crude insults still kindof creeping in my mind. why the hell am i still here? i donno i guess im still afraid.....message me back