Scared.Why?'Cause I'm gonna die soon.How do I know?I miight have heart disease or cancer or both.How do I know that?My dad's side has heart disease and my mom's side has cancer.I pretty much know i hvae heart disease because of this wierd marking on my ear that my mom and the doctors identified earlier in my life.So now they're running all these tests and stuff like that on me.Cancer,I really have no idea if I have it or not but there's a small chance that I might.I really don't want these tests.It's not 'cause I'm tired of doing them it's 'cause I know my parents could be doing so much more with the money.I don't want them too basically spend all their money on just me.I mean if they do save me from all this stuff what do they get out of this?Just me.Nothing else.Why would the save a person like me is what I always ask it's not like I'm important to society.I don't deserve to live.I'm not suicidal but it's true.I always wonder why am I alive?I'm just a kid that can't make a difference in anyone's lives and sucks the life out of everything.Well I can't finish this blog right now cause I'm half asleep(2:30AM EST Time).I'll write the rest in a few hours.Well please comment if you care or write something atleast saying,"You're a suicidal B!tch!",that'll just show how polite some people on here are.>.>