Well my cat has been put to sleep like a lot of you recommended and as of now the house just doesn't seem like home. I miss my cat a lot and I don't know what day we put him to sleep as I don't want to remember the day he died. I can only say I will forever remember he died on the month of my birthday. It just feels too empty without a cat to meow at you, want attention and want to play tag (As he was known for hitting you with his paw after he chased you then run away), or to be there when you're crying your eyes out (which I do alot being the depressed one of the family).

I can truely say I feel alone as my cat Cody was the only pet we had. I feel kinda upset as I never said goodbye to him before my mom took him to get put to sleep. I couldn't quite say goodbye then as I just couldn't speak. My mom was suppose to pick up his paw print, but I can only guess she forgot as it's been days later. I'm at the point of screaming my head off but nothing  comes out.

Tags: Kitty

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Haha, well it's been a long while I can say I've changed quite a bit since last year. I ain't quite the same. Things here aren't the same as they use to be, friends coming and going. Becoming more and more inactive here. There isn't much for me to do here. Honestly I don't visit the arcade that much I guess I don't all the much like the games here. Reasons for why I am here are fading a bit. Really the only reason I come here is to talk to people, now there isn't anybody to really chat with because they have either left or just very inactive.

Kind of having a hard time just making new friends because I've become more aware that there are pervs on this site and some people are just rude. Being on here is like my everyday life without school. Nothing to do, nothing to look forward to, no happy thoughts and filled with loneliness. If you haven't noticed (probably not since when I get messages it is quite rare) I complain more about life, I don't find things very great. Often having to regret things about my life.

Hey, at least we still all know I'm alive though. xD I still pretty much joke around about stupid **** and random but not as random as I use to be. Ummm, my cat is still alive, when he gets worse he'll be put to sleep as you guys suggested in my last blog. Just maybe I'll be blogging more because I'm one of those ones that have issues with their minds and just think their life is just full of crud. Yeah, deal with it now that I no longer have a bestfriend.   xD

Ummm, losing the whole reason why I am even typing this blog. Nope, I lost it. x) Well nice seeing ya. Hope you had a good day. Comment if you wish, or not.

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My cat has had diabetes. We discovered He had it on December 31st 2010. Prices have gone up on everything so it is impossible to give the shots he needs now. 

His Information:
His name is Cody and he is only 3 years old. No one knows his exact birthday so we gave him a fake birthday which is May 21st, he was actually my early birthday persent. As he was growing up some kids had visited and was being mean to him. There was nothing I could do though, I couldn't tell them to leave because they were my mom's friends kids. With that, Cody thought there was mean in everyone, but my family. But I've taught him not all are mean, he use to be a bully to my best friend Kaia, but after her coutless visits and attempts to reach out to him, he finally started to be good to strangers. He use to be around other cats, but he was too ruff to play with them. As of right now he seems to be doing just fine.

Need Your Advice:
I love my cat so much I'd like to do what is best for him. There are two choices left for him. I need you guys to tell me which path I should choose for him. I can either go with what my mom thinks, put him to sleep once when he gets too bad and not let him suffer anymore. Or... We can attempt to give him away for someone else to take care of him, to give him the shots and everything he needs.

Please tell what you think I should do.

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This is goodbye, I don't want to leave, but yeaj I sorta have to. I will miss all my great friends, I love chatting with you guys and I hope you won't forget me because I'm gonna make sure I don't forget you guys. This is sad even for me... Think I'm calm and happy now? HEX NO! I'm filled with sorrow and tears are sreaming down, because I'll miss all the good times we had together. Honestly I wish I could've talked to all those people in my friends list and tell them all I'm leaving by a comment or message, but I just don't have time to send messages and comments to all those people, I'm only one person and please I tried to send all my good friends a message, but it's just hard trying to find all of you... Well I might now be back, but who knows? I may come back in the future. =3 Ganbatte!(Good luck) And Goodbye!

((If you still want to keep in contact with me, I go on marriland.com, and I'm on there every day.. you could go to that site then click forums, then register... =) my name is the same as always, Alice_Shards.))

NEVER FOR*GET
~Alice Shards

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No, don't just look at me! I have lost hope weeks ago, no wait... 3 months ago, but I'm still going on strong! But from what I have from my polls a lot of people seem to think they're just shadows in life, that they don't belong. We all have a reason of being here even if we can't find it! Honestly I wish I can help the people that are down, but I'm one person with many friends, and some of my friends maybe in depression and I don't even know it. Also change how you are now, before its too late! WE form the future for the little ones, I've seen stealing becoming more of a problem on where I live, but thats because people don't even give a care about the world or others! I hate it when people don't care anymore... My mom, 2 brothers, and sis-in-law don't care... and I hate it that they've given up hope and all, but no matter what I do I can't help the.

IM NOT A HIPPIE!

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You like pokemon. This is one site, its my all time favorite, you can get in better contact with me if you join itm cuz I'm way active on there. You don't have to join, but this site is the reason WHY I get to you messages and comments so late

http://www.marriland.com/phpbb/

Okay, now for a second site, PLEASE don't join this site if your gonna be cussing people out on the live chat, there are Mods and Admins on there.
(Bad;y needs members)

http://www.pokemonshale.tk/

Well I join a lot of sites, but these are the only ones I recommend right now, leave a comment if you wish, and if ya have any sites you wanna suggest to me, go ahead.

For the record, this blog was just for fun, I'm gonna force ya to join any of these. I will try to stay active on this site, but it seems just a little impossible, but I'm trying

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Holy freakin cow! okay in marriland.com I made this RP called Forbidden World and then when that rp was finished, my friend asked for permission to make the 2 version of it, I allowed him to and now that the 2nd version has come to an end everyone that joined that freakin 2 version are trying to make a 3rd one without my permission and my friends! WHAT THE HEX!? I'm right there trying to tell them that its already decided who will make the 3rd one and the freakin *** ***** ignore me! I posted on there 5 times that its already decided and my other friend yuhato, goes right ahead and just tells everyone that hes making it, giving credit to only himself! I'm done with Rps(creating them), and as of for that one Rp blog i set up on here, the 2nd chapter will never be posted, sorry. Not like anyone cares about that blog anyway. x_x

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yuhato typed: "Oh, you're a psychic?" Hiryu said, frost still hovering around his hand,"sorry about that. Normally, if i'd known, I'd just've stopped you, not tried to killl you." He helped Crowe up,"And this is Crowe, but everyone knows him."
Crowe typed: Crowe slowly got up. "Ow... I'm sorry if i made you mad because of exposing us, but I really didn't mean to." Crowe looked down. He then began to think.
(Cut off the rest of story)

END OF CHAPTER ONE

Character Details:

Crowe:
Name:
Crowe Jayed
Age:
16
Gender:
Male
Weapon:
Katana
Psychic power:
Telepathy, which can work on more then one person at a time and hid other power is moving opjects and living things.
Bio:
Crowe has been living by himself all his life and had not done a thing wrong up till he blew the secret about psychics. Crowe has been hiding since and he wishes he hadn't had done that. Crowe is hiding from not just normal people but also his own kind. He believes that he will die, but keep strong.
Personality:
Outgoing, kind, adventurous, Calm
Appearance:

Alice_Shards:
Name:
Ace Tsuki
Age:
15
Gender:
Female
Weapon:
Kunia Knives
Psychic Power:
Control of electric and can see into future, only when asleep and when wants to
Bio:
Ace has been looking all over for Crowe to beat the crud out of him for blowing the secrets, she was almost caught once by the people, but she had used the air vents to get out. Ace no trust issues, but can be untrusted.
Personality:
Kind, brave, serious
Appearance:

yuhato
Name:
Hiryu Toshibi
Age:
23
Gender:
male
Weapon:
Katanas(2)
Psychic power:
control over ice and control over air
Bio:
Hiryu was one of the other people who revealed that psychics were real, but he killed the people who knew. He considers himself to be a "cleaner" by killing the people after the psychics.
Personality:
cold, really, and humorous at times.
Appearance:
look up Ren Shaman King, and you'll see.

Lucario25
Name:
Raidah Koi
Age: 
15
Gender:
Female
Weapon:
Moon Seed (A special Stone that enables her to sufficate a living being from a far distance)
Psychic power:
Power to control Plants...>:D
Bio:
Raidah had disliked it when Crowe had told the world about Psycics, one day she will wrap him up in vines and feed him to the gators at the zoo, but not too soon. Raidah likes to hang around in trees, but she doesn't like to be bothered, if she is, you better hope you have reflexes because her powers are far strong, but having a weak spot had given herself up...Raidah isn't social, she is individual...Raidah is also Blind, but being a Psycic, she can sense your presence...beware..
Personality:
Raidah isn't much of a social person but she can get ticked off pretty easily, but when she does, you better watch out, having the psycic power over plants gives her an advantage to squeeze the life out of you...
Appearance:

Comment about the story and i just might type down chapter 2...

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Characters: (none of these people are from here only from marriland.com)
Crowe : Crowe Jayed
Alice_Shards : Ace Tsuki
yuhato : Hiryu Toshibi
Lucario25 : Raidah Koi
~Eternal Psychic~

Introduction:

Tales of psychics are true and everyone thought it was all a bunch of legends and stories. Many people tremble in fear of them, to normal people they are mean and will torcher you in anyway. Some psychic was dumb enough to actually show in front of camera and thousands of people that psychics do exist. This idiot was named Crowe Jayed. All the psychics are gonna be taken to a special jail, tested on and if the people can't make everyone else psychics then the original psychics will be torcherd to death. Not only that If it is a success in making everyone else one then the world will be at war. I had to edit the out of character(aka OOC) stuff, so this took a long time, this story was posted all over marriland and some people from marriland go here so if they catch you stealing this stairy your in trouble. lots of people from marriland also go to other sites too

Chapter 1
The Psychics Meet

Crowe typed: Crowe was wondering down a street in a dark ally way. It was midnight and he was sore because he had to fight some people that were shooting him. One man had shot him right in the arm. The other nearly stabbed him in the throat. Crowe was still bleeding from the gun shot. He leaned against the wall and slid down to the ground, he was too tired to keep moving. "Uhhhh... Why me? Did they have to shoot? I was only trying to find something to eat" Crowe said, his voice sounded scratchy. He closed his tired eyes. Oh god, don't torcher me anymore, I'm a good guy here. Thought Crowe.
yuhato typed: "Hey." Hiryu said, leaping down from a nearby roof,"I can tell that you're like me." He didn't smile,"Also, those gunshot wounds were shot by amatuers, only an amatuer would dare to shoot at one of us." He helped Crowe up, and then handed him a piece of bread,"It isn't much, but eat it." He saw the woudns and held his hand out. Ice froze over the wounds, aand stopped the bleeding,"And in case you care, I'm not doing this because I care. I just don't want to see another Psychic die." He looked closely,"You're the one who revealed us to the public, aren't you?"
Crowe typed: Crowe took the bread and looked up at Hiryu. Crowe was happy Hiryu had helped him, but he had a feeling that Hiryu just might attack Crowe. He had ate some of the bread, but he stopped and backed up a couple of steps, when Hiryu asked if he was the one that had revealed to people about psychics. "Yeah, but I swear! it wasn't my fault! What else are you suppose to do when you panic once when someone trys to throw a knife at you!?" Crowe said, he sounded like he was panicing. Crowe can't stay calm if he thinks someone was going to kill him while he was in a weak state. Keep calm, keep calm, Crowe! Forget the fact you can't fight right now... He thought. But he still just couldn't calm down.
yuhato typed: "I would've ducked, but eh, your decision." Hiryu gave a false smile," And I did something like that, too. I just killed all the witnesses before they got a chance to tell anyone, and if they did, i hunted them down, too." He smiled evilly," I have no intention of attacking you, however. You are too good of a Psychic to kill." Hiryu stared right into Crowe's eyes, hios own burning with hatred for humans, and alive with an intent to kill. Hiryu drew his swords, andthen sheathed one of them. He twirled the other one, and then thought aloud,"Have you ever noticed that humans don't hate us because we've done anything wrong, but because we're different?" He smield, "Then again, they hate ME because i did something wrong, and then they used that as a sterotype for all of us Psychics."
Crowe typed: Crowe was a bit happy that Hiryu wasn't gonna kill him. "Never thought of it that way, but you killed people just to stop the word from getting out? Why would you do that? Whats you name anyway?" Crowe didn't bother to tell Hiryu his name because Crowe was all over the news and news papers. Heh, im so badly wanted i have to sleep in old houses that are abandon, I hate taking the floor for a bed. But why would Hiryu just go around killing people like that? In the past did he perposly let out the secret or by mistake?
yuhato typed: "I killed people to keep our people safe." Hiryusaid,"I'm Hiryu Toshibi, and not many people know my name, so you're lucky. Those that have heard it in the past never got to use it again." He looked around a bit,"And klike you, i made a mistake that let out our secret, and it wasn'ton camera, well, one woman did get it on her cellphone., but i froze the battery, and so it never made it to the internet." He held up the swprd, and it froze over, "That's one of my abilities. I can control ice. It's very useful, and i've found that i an kill someone in 2.4 seconds by freezing their heart."
Crowe typed: Crowe was eating his bread and when Hiryu said how fast he could kill people he made a loud swallowed on his last bite. Wow, that fast? Best if i stay on his good side. He was impressed on how Hiryu froze his sword. Crowe used one of his powers, he was talking to Hiryu with his mind and only Hiryu could hear it. Telepathy. "Hey, what do you think of this power? comes in handy when I want to mess with peoples heads and to find out what others are thinking. I can also levitate things. But you might know the levitate part, thats the only part thats been all over the news." Crowe smiled. He made Hiryu's sword move out of his hand, floating up above him. He then set it back into Hiryu's hand.]
yuhato typed: "Your owers are-" Hiryu stiffened. he could hear people coming, "completely unreal. Now, that one dude, the psychic dude from TV, now he had real powers." The people passed, and Hiryu relaxed, "Very interesting, is what i was going to say before those people came. But they were innocent, and didn't hear me say anything. but your powers are useful in the killing buisness, too. You can lift someone to unimaginaable heights, and rhen dro[p them. You can mess with someone's mind, make them go crazy, make people believe that we don't exist, even!"
Crowe typed: "Yeah..." Crowe remembered something. "Uh... You know that one guy that went real insane and he happened to be a teacher. He was all over the news and all the dude ate was pie, Happened last year on the news, that had to deal with me, I did that to him." Crowe shrugged. He shivered st that thought. "Well, anyway I guess we should get out of here. Its not safe with me around. Also, do you really think that its possible for me to actually make people think that we don't exist?" Crowe was trying to figure that one out, he hadn't tested out his powers much, most of the time he kept them hidden.
Alice_Shards typed: Ace was at a hotel, she had a good advantage for now, no one new who she was so it was easy to not be known by regular people, however she had to be carful since camera's were up at every corner of the building she new that they were trying to find all the psychics. She kept her power hidden for now, but who knows how long she can take it with not using her powers. She left the place, she only went over there to see if anyone had news about Crowe, but no one new anything.
yuhato typed: "I don't know." Hiryu saw someone startoing, and snapped out his palm without stopping talking. a rush of air slammed the listener into a far wall, snapping their neck, "Se? That's what i do." He smield creepily,"But nothing's better than cuttuing them in fourths with my swords."
Crowe typed: Crowe flinched away. He walked to the dead body and gave it a soft kick. "I'm guessing killing is what you like to do, but note that someone might have a camera when you kill them, lots of people like to search peoples bodys to see if theres evidence, this is there evidence." Crowe made a small mini cam float up in the air. "It doesn't record unless if..." Crowe stopped right there, he froze. "We were discovered Hiryu! someone had made this person wear a cam, while the other sits in they're hiding spot to watch it all! They might have recorded what just happened from where they're at!" He looked up at Hiryu to see what he was going to do. Crowe was also waiting for Hiryu's reply, he could hear Hiryu's thoughts, but ignored most of them and only listened to his main thoughts, basically what Hiryu wants him to hear.
yuhato typed: "Then." Hiryu walked over, and dismantled the camera. He found a small chip, and crushed it, "Now theres no saved evidence. If we can find the place it was transporting to, we can get rid of any mroe evidence." E looked at Crowe,"Killing isn't always what i like to do, but what i have to do." his face turned deadly serious,"And if we were discovered, what does it matter? Everone alreadymknows about you, and i kill everyone who knows about me, so then, we have nothing to worrry about. The police already know me, anmdi kill them like flies when they come."
Alice_Shards typed: Ace heard someone in a house yelling "Hurray! I got prof! I final got it! Who knew they got along with each other!? I gotta pay another person to spy on them to see if there are others that need to be on the news!" Ace froze. Ace thought. She looked up and saw that the man was in the living room. Ace walked over there and tried to figure out how to take the vid away. She was in front of the mans house.
yuhato typed: "Now, if only we had someone who could manipulate elctricity." Hiryu murmured when he heard a yell,"Of course! THis is a short range Camera, so the person must be close!" Of course, Hiryu didn't know the word in the yell, they were incohereent.
Crowe typed: Crowe starred at Hiryu. "So whats the plan, chief?" Crowe tried to figure out where the yell came from. "I'm not sure what we can do about the electricty part though, we don't know a psychic that can do that," Crowe put his hand on his sword, he was tabing it's handle part with his finger.
Lucario25 typed: Raidah was walking along the dark streets. Oy, what can i do now, I wonder if that slimeball Crowe is around, i want to give him a piece of my mind thought Raidah to herself as she walked along the streets. Raidah then entered the alleyway, sitting down and leaning against the fence, starring down, she could sense others were near, but refused to go to them, knowing if it were those crazed people or if it were other Psycics...
Alice_Shards typed: Ace made some sparks fly, she was getting agravatted as she heard the man saying things about psychics. The sparks were shot in the other direction, so the dude didn't notice, no one was around but her so thats why she did that. Her sparks went far into the distance, bouncing up and down from the ground, it made it to the alliway. "I'm gonna get him if he doesn't shut up....." she was glaring.
Crowe typed: Crowe saw some sparks and quickly pointed at them "Hiryu look!" The sparks had came from Ace's direction. "What did that?" Crowe asked. What in the world could have done that!? this world is all crazy, maybe by electrical wires? Crowe thought to himself.
yuhato typed: "Well, let's go find out." hiryu said, walking towards the source, and he saw a girl, who looked very angry," Hey, Crowe, I found our source of sparks! It's a girl, probably a psychic." He heard a voice coming frm the house nearby, talking about psychics. He snapped his palm outwards,a nd the door went flying in. He walked in and faced the man in his living room, where he was watching video of Hiryu and Crowe. Hiryu tapped him on the shoudler, andwhen he turned aroudn, cut his head off in one swing before freezing th computer so much it lost all it's saved data.
Lucario25 typed: Raidah decided to hang around the alleyway for a short bit. Raidah walked around, having being Blind would never trouble her. She walked on, until she had figured she had walked to a dead end. "Oh gosh" said Raidah as she turned around to walk away, she bumped into somebody, "Oh i'm sorry I-" but before she could finish, she sensed that the person she bumped into, was like everybody else, crazed about pscycics. Raidaha also sensed he had a video camara as well and she didn't know what to do. Until the green vines came from the earth having them rise up, tangling around the person, and crushing the video camara. Raidah then lifted up her hand to point in front of the person, and then, closing her hand in a instant, swiftly moving it to the right, you could hear the person sufficating. All Raidah could hear, was coughing and then a horrible yell from the person and then the person had died in a instant. Raidah walked away, leaving the tangle of vines still there, leaving the person stuck in the vines and leaving the crushed videocamara on the ground. Raidah just walked away ignoring it all as she found her way back in the city, in which she pulled her hood over her eyes and walked on down the street....
Alice_Shards typed: Ace looked at Hiryu. "Who are you?" She asked then she noticed Crowe. "Your so dead, dude" She was about to attack Crowe when she heard someone yelling and screeching in pain. "What the?" She was confused by all that was happening.
Crowe typed: Crowe had also heard someone yell in agony. "Hiryu! Is the evidence completly gone? and who is yelling in pain? Who is this girl that not to long ago looked like she wanted to kill me?" Crowe was too paniced to actually saying anything outloud.
yuhato typed: "Yes, Crowe, the evidence is gone." Hiru sighed,"and the girl who wanted to kill you was another Psychic, and she's licky I killed the man, I dont like it whne others steal my prey." he looked down the alley and saw a person covered in vines,"I believe that that person was the one who sreamed."
Lucario25 typed: Raidah was walking along around the streets but decided to head back to the alleyway. She turned around to walk back, she had passed by the same man that was still caught in vines. Raidah smiled under her hood as she walked past him, passing by the other group of Psychics...
Alice_Shards typed: Ace glared. "I'm outta here." She walked away and made sparks appear with every step she took. She didn't want to be there right then because It was photo day. everyone would be out trying to find the famous photographer and try to get the person to take pictures of them.
yuhato typed: Hiryu stepped up to the girl in a hod, and froze her footsteps wth ice,
"Yoiu're the one who killed that man, aren't you?" He asked, eyes glowering, a small bal of wind in his hand, ready to blast forwards if she tried to run.
Lucario25 typed: "Honestly, i did, but he is like everybody else, trying to get the facts straight about us Psychics, so don't waste your time asking me a bunch of questions" spoke Raidah as she stepped around hiryu and kept on walking...
yuhato typed: "Whoa." Hiryu turned around,"Now, that's not something so simple to say. These people already know a lot aboutus. They have me on fiel at the polcie station, but they cn't say how i kill people." Hiryu held out his hand, and the girl's arm froze,"At least tell me your name. I had no interest in you except that question, but now I'm intrugued. What other powers do you have?"
Lucario25 typed: Raidah had felt her arm freeze, and with that she turned around, even though she was blind she was still starring in Hiryu's direction. A vine came from the ground and wrapped around the iced up arm and broke the ice and the vines dissapeared. "I am Raidah Koi, Psychic power over Vines, I weild the Moon Seed, if your wondering" said Raidah as she showed Hiryu a Moon shaped rock that had a faint blue glow. "Now, i must be on my way" said Raidah and she turned around, putting the Moon Seed into her pocket, and walked away again...
Crowe typed: Crowe glanced at Hiryu then at the girl that was leaving. She seems like she needs company, but... Crowe looked back at Hiryu, suddenly feeling like yesterdays news. Hes busy with Raidah. Crowe followed Ace, not bothering to tell Hiryu anything. Not like anyone would miss him, he did create this mess. "Wait!" Crowe called out.
Alice_Shards typed: Ace looked back to see it was Crowe, she quickly attacked him with her electric powers, Crowe hit the wall. "Thats for exposing us!" Ace yelled she was glaring at Crowe, she looked like she was ready to kill him. She got out one of her Kunia Knives and was aiming at Crowe's heart.
Crowe typed: Crowe hit the wall and fell to the ground, he couldn't move. Everything told him to get up and attack, but he didn't listen. He refused to attack Ace. If I die, I deserve it! Crowe thought, he was in agony. Crowe closed his eyes, prepared to let Ace take out his life.
yuhato typed: Hiryu, thinking that Ace(ah, how good it feels to be able to type that again instead of Alice) was a murderer, came running by, slashing with his wind-covered sword, easily cutting through the knife. He stabbed his sword into the ground once he as past her, and swung around it, using the momentum from his run, and then kicked her in the back, flipping backwards after grabbing his sword, hand at the ready to freeze her solid if need be.
Alice_Shards typed: "Ah, that wasn't cool!" Ace sat up, her back was hurting. she purposly shocked Hiryu and grinned. "Whoops." She said. Ace saw she had accidently made fall Hiryu by that. She got up and helped Hiryu up. "Sorry." She glared at Crowe.

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