Well, I made it to Kansas moved into my new home which is still a complete wreck because my sister still has yet to put all of her things away... I'm surprised our other roommate hasn't complained about it yet.

On another note... I have no internet at my house and I'm jacking a friend's computer. He's taking care of me while my sister is gone. She went to Maryland when she still needed to help me with adjusting to Kansas. I still don't really know how to get around yet... Oh, and she left me with the task of getting internet... Which I don't really know how to do... I know I need to buy some stuff before I call Cox cable, but I'm still at a loss...

I suppose that is all that's really going on. I'm really nervous though! My best friend is going to finally move to Kansas in a week! AHHH!!! I'm really excited and nervous!!

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Oh someone please kill me now!

I still have to pack, put oil in my car, air up the tires.... And God knows what else I have to do all today before I leave tonight. I'm freaking out! I hate flying and I hate seeing my mom cry. This sucks!!!

What sucks even more is that my best friend has been getting irritated at all the secrets I'm keeping from her. She's been guilt tripping me about it. Which I guess is my own fault when I say something about something that I have for her and I don't tell her what. But, now it's to a point where I feel absolutly bad about keeping it from her. I'm about to just tell her everything! Hey, love, I'm moving to Kansas to be with you, oh and I have a ring for you because I said I would propose to you when I saw you again. Didn't believe me? SURPRISE!!! *twitch*

I'm going to lose it...

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FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!

I'm flying out tomorrow and I'm nervous as hell!! I absolutly HATE flying!! I cry like a freaking baby when I'm by myself on airplanes! Gah! My first flight is 5 hours! Oh Correction! 5 hours and 15 minutes. And that's if everything goes as planed. Then I have a stop in Cali for an hour. Then back on the plane for 3 hours and 5 minutes... Then to Texas... 1 hour and 15 minutes... Then I finally reach my destination! WHOOO!! 

I have an old friend picking me up from the airport and then Thursday and Friday me and the girls are going to Missiouri to camp one day at a lake. Pretty excited! It'll be a nice time to catch up with them. It's been three years sense I've seen them. It'll be nice. After that I have to get working on finding a job and what not. Can't wait till the 1st to move into the house though! EXCITED!! And I can't wait till the 16th!! >w<

Well, I still need to pack!!! Gotta do that now!!!

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I'm moving Tuesday!!! All I need to do is pack stuff up and get my car sold. Which I pray!! PRAY!! That this one guy will buy it today! I really need to money for the house! I'm so nervous but excited! I get to see a few of my old friends once I get there! It'll be nice to see them again, even if it's for only a few hours. My best friend does not know of me moving though. I'm going to meet up with her and her parents when they get there on the 16th next month. She's going to be so surprised! Her mom knows about everything and she's helping me out with the surprise and what not. God, it's been so hard not saying a word to her about me moving. I've been stressing about the move and I really needed to vent to someone and I knew I couldn't say a word to her. 

Oh! The house my sister, her friend, and I are moving into is so cute! It has a large porch which I LOVE!!! Though, it's almost like an apartment. We get the middle part of the house and there will be people above us and below us. But, it's really pretty! And it's somewhat close to my sister's school and hopefully not too far from mine. I don't want to drive a long distance. (Even though at my old school I had to drive about 15 to 20 minutes cause it was on the windward side of the island....) 

The down side of moving is... My stuff won't get to me till September... So, my room is going to have a bed... That's it. A bed and some clothes. Good God it's going to suck! I won't have my books, dressers, games... I believe that's it. I'm limited on how much I can ship. Well, when it's said and done... I'll be quite content.

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Please don't read if you are against gays, bis, and lesbians. I don't want you to feel offended or disgusted or what not.

What's wrong with me!? I was reading some past texts me and my best friend had sent to each other and most of it contained us role playing as Ezio and Leonardo. Me being Leonardo of course. :3 Any way... Well, when we role play we tend to throw in some flirty heart felt words into some of the texts. Well, I've already told her this that my heart flutters when I read them and she told me that her heart does too. Well... I've never really thought about like... Really liking her in a way passed friendship. We've been really close friend for about two years now. I mean, she's the best thing that's ever happened to me. She's a great person and I miss her a lot. (She moved awhile ago. I'll see her next year though when I move there.)

Well, a couple of nights ago I was thinking about what if we had a relationship. I totally waved it away. I had a talk with her already about her sexuality. She said that she was sort of bi curious, but wasn't jumping on the bandwagon. She even told me that if she ever did that she would ask me out first. I was really flattered that she said that, but again I waved the idea away. I really look at her as a person who will marry a man some day and yadda yadda.

I've been, myself going out on dates with other people, but I find myself comparing them to her. Which is weird trying to compare a guy to a girl... But, I'm afraid that is the reason why I keep pushing the guys away that I date is because I have some sort of mindset that I'm with my friend. I know I shouldn't. But... I don't know it's weird... I might be over thinking this, but it's been on my mind lately... 

I really hope this whole thing goes away though... When I move, I'm moving in with her and I'm afraid that I'll blurt out how I'm feeling and it'll just make things awkward. Or maybe I could play it off and say I was joking. I mean we jokingly flirt all the time, so I guess she'd just laugh.

... You know... My situation would be such a good fanfic! I'll defiantly have to write one out at some point!

So, yeah... I guess I just wanted to write this out and organize my thoughts a little... Yup...

Tags: Heart Flutter Friend

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Hey everyone!!! So, the site wasn't accepting a lot of my work, because the file sizes are too large. So, instead of me screaming at my computer... I'll start posting my work in my blogs... Now, I understand why other people on here do that.

This is a comic that my friend and I did together. It was just something random we were talking about one day while playing assassins creed.

This was for my best friend who graduated from High School and moved back to the mainland. I miss her dearly and she'll always be the Ezio to my Leonardo. <3

This is part of my fanfic. The man ruffling Malik's hair is his father, Akil. (Yes I know that we don't know if Malik's parents were still alive or not, but it's my story darn it!)

Well, there's a lot more pictures I would like to put up, but... They aren't age appropriate... *cough* Any way!! Hope you enjoy!

Tags: Assassins Creed Ezio Altair Kadar Malik Girl Drawings Art Work

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So, I don't know if anyone has noticed, but... I haven't been posting a lot of art lately... And that's because the drawings I have done are too big for the website, and I'm too lazy to try to adjust the drawings. So, if you want to see my new drawings go to my deviantart account. (Link will be below) Thanks and... Yeah? :3

http://candynights.deviantart.com/

Tags: Drawings Art Deviantart Visit

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*sighs* Okay, I hate complaining about things, but it's been eating at me. So, this website is called DrawingNow correct? Correct. So, why in God's name do people post pics of themselves? I can understand maybe in their blogs, but for their galleries? People I could care less what you look like! Art is the main thing about this site not pics of you doing the duck face! *giggles at duck face* If you want to post pics of yourself; get a facebook! *sighs* I really hate complaining about this stuff. I guess I'm just sick of seeing little kids taking pics of themselves in the most... *shakes head* sexual poises that I feel like I want to hurl. Pedos people! There are pedos out there! *shivers at thought* Look, I understand you all are wanting to be hot stuff, but please wait till you're older. Or just don't do it period! People will get the wrong idea about you. I sound like an old woman. Well, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Sorry if you get upset with reading this.

Tags: Art Pics You Blogs Gallery Grrr

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Hmm.. I never bloged before. lol Well, I guess I can talk about something, huh? Well, it's been pretty hard lately in my world. College is taking up a lot of time, so is work. I kind of feel like my life is draining from me day by day. I think I'm getting depressed by it all. I've been forcing myself to draw something to keep me happy, but my feels are hurting my art pretty bad. I barely can draw chibis without wanting to eat my paper in disgust. I hardly ever talk to anyone besides my parents, but I've been distant with them, because it seems like they don't want to hear me complain about my life. They see that my life is going great, but I'm a prisioner in my own mind. I'm surprised that I haven't snapped yet. Sorry for the emo moment, but I guess I just needed to type it out to feel a little bit better. ^-^;

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