How dare you say that ?!@# to me.

Especially, the way you said it.

Well at least now you’ve set me free.

Now would you leave, please don’t watch me quit.

.. ..

And now I’m crying!

Sitting in the shower so I can’t see my tears...

I’m sick of trying!

Don’t try and stop me I’ve lost all my fears...

Now can you please leave me alone?

I just wanna die on my own.

.. ..

So who are you?

Can’t you see I’m not alright?

Freak? Weak? You have no clue.

You have no fucking idea what it’s like.

.. ..

From “I love you”

To “I hate you”

To “take your own life.” X2

.. ..

And now I’m crying!

Sitting in the shower so I can’t see my tears...

I’m sick of trying!

Don’t try and stop me I’ve lost all my fears...

Now can you please leave me alone?

I just wanna die on my own.

.. ..

Will you stop pretending?

What you said should be a crime.

Step back before the ending.

“Cut an inch deeper next time”

.. ..

So now I’m lying!

Lying in the shower so there’s no mess for you...

I’m done with trying!
Be careful what you wish for ‘cause it could come true...

Now can you please clean me up?

I don’t wanna show my mum. 

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I can see your blood drip

From your chest where I stabbed this dagger

This dagger that I grip

Tightly, with anger

With regret

With pain

... And sadness

I love you (I love you)

I’m sorry (I’m sorry)

I love you (I love you)

I’m sorry (I’m sorry)

Now you lie there

And tears stream down my face

I just stand and stare

I have to get out of this place

Run away

Leave You

... But I can’t

I love you (I love you)

I’m sorry (I’m sorry)

I love you (I love you)

I’m sorry (I’m sorry)

I never wanted to break your heart

Literally or symbolically

Now I’ve done both and must part

I lift the dagger slowly

Lining it up

I stare into your eyes

... Good, goodbye

I love you (I love you)

I’m sorry (I’m sorry)

I love you (I love you)

I’m sorry (I’m sorry)

I love you (I love you)

I’m sorry (I’m sorry)

I’m so fucking sorry

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I could see my destiny

Staring back at me

I knew it was coming

I could see it in my eyes

Horror

Fear

Panic

I screamed out

And with a sickening shout

I compressed my eyes shut

And suffered it

Stabbing

Shattering

Pain

I heard my mums’ heavy footsteps

As I took my last aching breaths

I stared up at her face

As her tears fell on me

Don’t Cry

Please

I love you

Then I rolled my head to the side

And witnessed a horrific site

In a tiny square of mirror

Was the reflection of a

Repulsive

Slashed

Fiend

I tried to release a scream

As my father ran onto the scene

I heard him gasp with horror

As I felt dizzy and weak

This was it

Goodbye

Black.

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I hate him. I hate her. I thought I was over it. But seeing THAT makes me realise I'm sure as hell not! I hate that he tells her exactly the same things you told me. IT'S PATHETIC! UGH!!!!! Makes me mad! I'm mad at myself for talking to him again! I'm mad for caring! He says he needs me! But he clearly doesn't! He has her!

Shoot me?

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