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Lost
Posted On 08/22/2011 02:39:59
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i will be starting school soon,.At the moment im feeling lost. that's the best way i could describe it. so many things have happened this summer that i feel alot of anger and sadness because of it. Around May my father said some things that hurt...alot. For the past three years my step mother has been tormenting me and after all those three long years i finally told my bro about it who is already graduated,has a job and married. my sis in law reacted and told my father. i feared telling him because of the kind of person he is. my father has been temporarly "confined" for hurting my mom physically and he lied about it telling me it was my mom tricking him into jail. He's the kind of guy who wants you to think he's a good person, he tries to make you feel sorry for him then the moment you do he manipulates you by hurting someone else and then eventually comes back and hurts you. Even when i wanted him around he wouldnt be a real dad for me. He probably wasnt any better with my brother either. My own father even tried to get me and my brother to hate eachother by manipulating my bro with fear. fortunatly my bro over come that for my sake ,but that only makes me hate my father even more and i hate myself for hating him. I shouldnt have to hate my own flesh and blood and i will never know what it's like to have a real,loving and caring father. Im sure you still wondering "well if your sure you hate him then why feel so lost?" I'll tell you why. The things that my Father said werent the best things to hear from you own parent "Maybe i shouldnt have had kids in the first place.","I HAD ENOUGH...BITCH!!!", and the rest of the things he said were incredibly sexist and he said those things to me....calling me a fucking ***** what kind of a father is that? That was the moment i left him and havent spoken to him since...Now i live with my mom and i should be happy right? but for some reason i havent felt very happy there. it wasnt her,it wasnt the place i guess i cant help but be sad. now i have to go to a diffrent school and not see my friend any more and i've never been to a diffrent school and it's supposed to be bigger. Also I cant take my cats to the home that my mom lives in. She's a school councilor but not at the school im going to and now that i live with her it's harder for her to take care of herself and me. its harder for her to afford things and is hurting because of it but she seems to be happy that im there though. but it makes me feel guilty and sad. a week ago i spoke to my step mother for once in all the time i knew her,we had an ok conversation. for some weird ass reason and i dont know what the hell was wrong with me but i ended up asking her to visit them on the weekends. she said yes to it but she's not going to be there that weekend and now im going to go back to that place and be stuck alone with the father that i havent spoken to in three months...im scared of what might happen he's capable of murder..i dont know what to do. i dont want to call them back and i still need to get my things from their house.......give me your opinion, what would you do or could you give me some advice just something..
Tags: Sad Depressed Confused Bewildered Angry Lost
today i went to go see avatar the last air bender and they do go by the story very well defenatly better job than prince of persia the movie. damn the person who decied to not go by the story at all . the only thing that the film and the game had in common is the title and the charture's names and that's just sad. the only complaint i have out of the whole film for avatar the last air bender is they didnt include the kioshie warriors everything else is good so when you have time or money to go see avatar the last air bender i highly recommend you go see it!
Tags: Avatar The Last Air Bender Film Anime
back when i was 9 years old my older bro got me to play a online game called runescape and i tried to come up with a name so my bro sugested xodeer bacuase at that time i wuz a freak of bambi when i was 9 years old. but later i started not liking the name because it seemed dorky to me so i changed it to xocat because that was my number 1 fav animal and they were ever since i was 2 years old. and that's why my username is xocat.
today i checked my weight and i weighed 176 pouds!!! DX after that i made up my mind im going to lose weight and get active,drink lots of water plus milk, eat many fruits and vegitables. including running i dont know if 176 lbs is OK my height is 5'4 and my age is 13 of couse u all no mi age well anyways the reson why i typed this to inspire those who are fat and do know when to start . well guess what you can start losing weight now! it's ur decision to lose weight i cant make u no 1 can only u can choose. so get ur but off the computer and start getting healthy good luck
yes i was realy sad when she died and was buried may 29 2009.i have known Snerkerbe as long as i can rember she was a very shy kitty.her original name was socks but when i was three i told my brother that her name should be snekerbe not socks because socks r smelly.lol.and my brother liked the name snerkerbe and so her name became snerkerbe i think she was ten years old when she died and my brother took snerkerbe every where with him arizona even.but i'll miss snerkerbe.
im not realy sure it seems interesting to me.my favorite peoples on there is lust,edward,scar,Mr.Hughs and roy mustang. i pick lust for my profile background picture. because she the best of the group in my opinion. it would have been edward but he is too much of a girly drama queen. roy is cool too but i don't think roy would fitin with my profile lust on my profile with the darkpurple colors it does make my profile look abit gothic it looks cool anyway i might change my profile agian it's fun :D
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HOLY CRAP WHAT WAZ THAT!!inuyasha yelled.it was me u retard
. kagome said.HEY Kagome!koga yelled from a distance.(
inuyasha's expession).sup! MUT!! LOLOLOL!koga said.(
im going to kill him!inuyasha thoaght.)UR FACE IS A MUT!!Inuyasha said
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<<<<Kagome.
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