these days, i find it very hard to make my life meaningful. i'll go to school, eat my breakfast, and do my homework, but for what? i don't understand why we should have to do the same routines every single day. and if we don't we're basically making a death wish. if you don't go to school, you won't get a job and then you'll die. sometimes, when i'm riding in the car, i won't put on my seatbelt just so that i have the possibility of getting into a crash and dying. is it normal to think these things? and late at night, when my thoughts are starting to get the best of me, i think about taking 1 too many pills. just to end it all. when you're dead, you can't feel pain. nobody can hurt you. death is inevitable. no matter how much you exercise, or how healthfully you eat, we all die. how can i live a meaningful life when i know, in the end, i'm going to die?