My Problem (Story form) *plz help me*

2 days before my B-Day, she got sick, the next day she attended our Christmas Party. After, it was my B-day, I tried calling her to remind it. Nobody was answering, the next day I waas regreting everything that gone wrong..... Until January the day of my piano, my teacher told me she got sick and cancelled her recital that was going to be on Dec 20...... I thought she waited after her recital to notice me, and her recital would be the most PERFECT gift that I will receive the rest of my B-day for my entire life. Yesterday, Jan. 6 my I was with her and her friends, they were looking at a picure then one of her friends said "(my best friend)!! Si (me) andito!!!" (filipino ) she said that about 3 to 4 times. She replied, but those 3 word broke me apart..... she said, "I don't care...." that was ringing on my head the whole day. After that her friend said (we are filipino, got it?) "Aruy!!! Busted, ang sakit naman nun!" her other friend said it too. I was trying to act normal, I tickled her other friend, while the other kept sayin 'I don't care' it irritated me. My best friend got irritated too and chased her into the church..... After they went in, I stopped tickling and just ran away. On Nov 25 I felt I was breaking apart day by day. Being ripped piece by piece, and yesterday, I felt I was shattered completely....... I try to be happy and that works on others eyes, but in my eyes, there is no escaping that I could deceive others, but in the inside I'm so sad that I could die. Tomorrow will be serious....