I dreamed I was missing.
You were so scared,
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else care.
After my dreaming,
I woke with this fear.
What am I leaving,
When I'm done here?
So if you're asking me,
I want you to know:
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done,
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed.
And, don't resent me,
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory,
Leave out all the rest...
(Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park)
I know all of this may be just false hopes... but if I don't belive in it, I'll never know if it's worth my efforts or not... what if I give up and that feeling keeps threatening me inside forever?... that feeling... I feel the greatness of being there... I feel how great is happiness... and then I feel it's far away from me... that's already enough to strike down my mood... but my mind doesn't think it's enough... it still shows me what happens, what happened and what will happen in those "happiness sanctuaries"... it shows me all I'll never have... everything I'll forever wish for... just wish... like if whispering to the hollow wind for it to take my petitions to nowhere... I don't know what's truth and what's lie... I don't know what's reallity and what's illusion... I'm always realizing things... always realizing that I don't know anything about what I try to understand... I know so little... but still... I know so much more than everyone else... I feel like I have to do something... but I don't know what... for now all I'll do is run after my dreams... and be careful with light, darkness, colors, heats, colds, places, winds, waters, textures, words, images memories and positions... cause that's mostly what build feelings...
P.s.: Incompletness isn't inperfectness, perfetcness isn't truth, truth isn't absolute and my words aren't certainty...